Depression and Me


Despite 1 in 4 adults suffering from some sort of mental illness, once you’re tagged with that label, the world can suddenly become a very lonely place.

Sometimes it’s nice to know you’re not alone in your suffering.

depression and me

I’ve taken a pretty open and honest approach to my mental health issues, it helps me to get everything out rather than keep it bottled up.
Sometimes I find it helpful to read other peoples stories, knowing I’m not entirely alone in this.

These posts tell my story.

Starting Again
Seems I’m not actually doing all that well on reduced meds and need to bump them back up. After so many years, countless pills and 5 different therapists I really thought I had got through the worst.
But I can feel the grey nothing creeping back, I’m slipping back.

What if… Walk With Me?
Depression, proper mind numbing depression where there is no black or white, no good or bad, just grey….. just nothing, I can’t just snap out of it.
I want to, I need to.
But I can’t.
Not yet.
I can see the world carry on around me, but I’m not a part of it, it will carry on regardless whether I laugh, cry or sit here silently watching it pass by.
Life goes on, but I’ve stopped living.

Choosing To Live Rather Than Exist
Its been a long, dark road to get where I am today, I’m not yet back to 100% but for the first time in a long time, I’m feeling good.

Wanting To Let Go ~ Moving On From PND & PTSD
You hear a lot about living with depression but not so much about getting though the other side, which is where I think I might be.
I was ready to talk to my GP today about maybe reducing my meds, which is a big deal for me, I’ve been on them for over 3 years, and I’m stuck between no longer wanting to be dependant on them and not knowing if I can survive without them.

Living with Depression ~ One Day at a Time
If there is one thing that living with depression has taught me it is to try and make the best of any situation.
It was easy to let it consume me everyday, and for a long time it did.
I’ve experienced dark times which could have taken over completely and left 2 little boys without a mummy.

12 comments :

  1. I completely relate. I have battled depression for most of my life. I know I would not be able to cope without my medication. It makes the worst days bearable.

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  2. Amanda, in these posts you have managed to sum up exactly how depression feels, the overwhelming feeling of grey blanketing everything. I too have suffered from it for years-sometimes triggered by outside circumstances , sometimes for no apparent reason at all. I too take meds when I need them -at the moment I am off them but I am learning (after many years) to know when I need them and to accept that they will help.Like you I find it helps to be open about it-and I like to think that it may help others who are struggling in the same way to know that they are not alone. Thank you for sharing-and thank you also for your wonderful blog, which I have just discovered.I want to make some bunting for my grandchildren's birthdays but would never have thought of using Word to make templates-brilliant!

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  3. Good for you, Amanda! One of the best things a person can do for themselves is to just talk, you know?
    And meds are not a bad thing, despite the stigma that still has a hold on them. Keep up the good fight!

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  4. Hi Amanda. I admire your talk about it out loud attitude. Keep fighting the good fight and remember,
    being on meds is not a bad thing. Only the stigma attached to them is! Take care, I'm glad I found
    your blog! Val

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  5. Hello Amanda, I suffered with severe depression some years ago which was quite devastating however, with treatment I came through it. I don't take any meds at all but, now and again I still get some symptoms which are related to the depression which I've learned to deal with. I love doing anything crafty and loved the decoupage chair! Do you find that craft helps to lift your mood when you're down? It certainly helped me. Remember that you're not on your own and I wish you all the very best. Pat.

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  6. I struggled with depression when I was 18, and it continued for 2 years. It is such a dark place to be in, but what really helped me was writing. I wrote down everything I was feeling, and it somehow really helped me come out of it. Actually, depression is why I started blogging. :) (I started on a different site, though.)

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  7. Geee, now I am even more grateful I found your blog. Thank you for sharing your truths with us here. I too suffer from major depression, anxiety, & a temporary physical disability as well... I cannot thank you enough for this post. I look forward to reading through all of those links. Thanks again. We are sooo lucky to be here for our babies :D Smiles, just one day at a time xo
    Jeanine from Canada

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  8. Sorry for staying anonymous, but, completely, I can relate to your experiences. And with all seriousness, I recommend Jesus Christ! Praying, going to church and just letting God do whatever He does, and however He does things. Just like that.

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  9. Thank you for sharing this post, the more people talk about it and are educated about it, the more people with depression (and those around them) can recognise, accept and deal with their own depression. I believe having depression is like alcoholism or any serious addiction, once you've had it, you can never let your guard down or stop watching out for symptoms, as it's always in the shadows, waiting to strike. And I use the word strike as that is just what it does, most time knocking us down, off our feet, turning our world upside down. It took me nearly 8 months to convince my husband (his constant mantra, just put a line under it and move on!) I had PND and it was nearly a year before I got medicated and counseled. They were the 'dark days' and no one can understand the bleakness unless they've been down their own well, looking up, watching the world around them go by yet being so far away. Maybe, just maybe, change your post title to Me and depression. It may not be 'good' English but you're the main and it's your hanger on, though I suppose sometimes it feels the reverse.

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  10. Thank you for sharing this post, the more people talk about it and are educated about it, the more people with depression (and those around them) can recognise, accept and deal with their own depression. I believe having depression is like alcoholism or any serious addiction, once you've had it, you can never let your guard down or stop watching out for symptoms, as it's always in the shadows, waiting to strike. And I use the word strike as that is just what it does, most time knocking us down, off our feet, turning our world upside down. It took me nearly 8 months to convince my husband (his constant mantra, just put a line under it and move on!) I had PND and it was nearly a year before I got medicated and counseled. They were the 'dark days' and no one can understand the bleakness unless they've been down their own well, looking up, watching the world around them go by yet being so far away. Maybe, just maybe, change your post title to Me and depression. It may not be 'good' English but you're the main and it's your hanger on, though I suppose sometimes it feels the reverse. I tried the notify me but it wouldn't let me select it.

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